Sunday night I dropped Hubby off at work, so they can all head to JRTC for the next month. It was hard to say goodbye. It felt like I just got him back from the last 5 months of training. I know this month will go by quickly, but it’s hard not to think ahead and realize that in a matter of time he’ll be saying goodbye again and heading out for a year.
I stayed strong as I consoled Emily on the way home. She was sad to see her Daddy go, but also so brave and understanding all at the same time. Once she was in bed though, my tears came. Not so much about this next month, but the next year. I’m not really scared, it’s just that I know I’m going to miss him so much. I just truly love being with him. We have so much fun together doing just about anything. He makes me laugh all the time. He’s my other half. He is my partner in all things. I’m still madly in love with him, and can’t imagine going to bed without him for a whole year.
After a few minutes of my own pity party though, I stopped and prayed. I know that fear is not from the Lord, and neither is feeling lonely. He wants me to depend on HIM. I know that the God that created the stars in the sky is watching over my husband and me at the same time. This training and deployment were not a surprise to God. He knows the future, our future. So, I prayed and I asked God to help me to trust him more, and He reminded me of the following scripture.
“The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”Deuteronomy 31:8
God also tells us that he has a plan for us.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”Jeremiah 29:11
Of course I’m going to miss my husband…my best friend…my partner. I’m going to miss him like crazy! But I also want to make the best of this time and see what blessings God has in store for me. I want to grow the way He wants me to grow. I don’t want to miss that! I can choose to stay holed up at home, moping and eating bon-bons, or I can get out there and explore this city, make new friends, and turn our new house into a home!
All the way!